Life is Full of Decisions

WARNING- THIS IS GOING TO BE A VERY LONG POST! SORRY!

So lately it feels like my whole life has been up in the air. Do we sell the house or do we keep it? Do we move to another area or do we stay local? Can we afford more kids? Yes, life is full of life changing decisions but how do we decide if the decision we are making is right for wrong?

I guess I should get to the point of all my rantings so here is the deal. Chase has been at the coal mine for about 7 months. For most of that 7 months I had convinced myself that he loved it there and was much happier than he had been. Now that I look back, I can see that I was just mearly convincing myself of that. Chase has a very strong personality as most of you know. He has a very hard shell and doesn't really talk about feeling, fears, dreams, etc. So I didn't really think much of the fact that he does NOT talk about work. Shortly after he started at the mine he was underground during an earthquake. I didn't hear about it for weeks after when he was telling his sister about it. Then in mid April he was driving a truck underground when something came off the ceiling of the tunnel and did some major damage to the truck he was in. Very shortly after that he started having these mysterous stomach pains that would come and go. One night he called me from the mine and asked me to come get him and drive him to the ER. Chase DOES NOT go to the dr so I knew something was seriously wrong. The dr looked at him and did some blood work. There were a few abormalities on his tests, but nothing that would explain the pain. I spent days online searching for something to explain the pains. I went to Chase's sister's one day and was talking to her about it and she asked me if he would tell me if he hated the mine. I was a little surprised, but then everything started to make sense to me.....the mysterious pains were only right before, during, and after work. All the things I read online made sense. He had anxiety from work. It is a little weird that I didn't realize it before because at my last job, I would have little anxiety attacks. My stomach would hurt so bad when I would come home that I was living on 2 hours of sleep a night. I know how awful that feeling is and I don't think anyone should work in a place they hate that much. I asked Chase if he hated the mine and he bluntly told me he HATES it, but there is nothing else here for him and he has a family to support so it didn't matter that he hated it. I told him there was no need to stay if he hates it. We will adjust.

Chase has been looking for a job. When I got home for lunch he said he got on hauling coal for Robinson's and is putting in his two weeks at the coal mine today. Chase's dad basically told him that he was stupid and wasn't thinking of his family, blah, blah, blah. So, back to the first of the post. Changing jobs is a huge decision so how do you know if you are doing the right thing? He thought he was doing the right thing when he went to the mine and it turned out not to be (or at least isn't anymore) so how do I assure him that he is making the right decision for our family when I don't know myself??

Gosh dang it, why does life have to be so dang hard!! LOL